If I Had Known…

September 11, 2021

If I had known…

If I had known your sweet face would utterly take my breath away…

If I had known your once tightly clenched fists would open up to pat my arm…

If I had known your crinkly-eyed grin would light up our world…

If I had known your tiny feet, clubbed at birth, would kick and dance in the air with glee…

If I had known love would ooze out of every ounce of your little body without you ever saying a word…

If I had known your own special song would bring a smile to the face of everyone around…

Would I have spent so many moments full of fear?

Would I have shed so many tears?

Would I have been overtaken by anxiety?

Would I have whispered so many desperate prayers?

Pressed into the truth of God’s Word?

Felt God’s tender mercies?

Known peace beyond understanding?

Sweet, precious Verity…you can’t possibly know what it is like to be your mama. But I KNOW you know your mama loves you! You are pure love, my daughter. If I had known…yes, perhaps, things would have been different. But I know now. And that is enough.